Month 5, Day 17, It continues...

The road is difficult. I've lapsed on the sugar, been a sugar-a-holic really, and enjoyed mother's day with cake and chocolate covered strawberries. While I've paced myself, I still enjoy my carbs too much. Pasta, onion buns, and chinese buns and lots and lots of sugar. I'm still working on healthy plans, I make a good gluten free chicken salad, with non-dairy ranch and peas and celery. That's the healthiest thing I make right now, and it fills me up well. I'm considering going gluten free, there have been symptoms, but gluten free is very expensive, and I'd miss my onion buns and chinese buns.

I've worked well exercising though. I go to my college's gym, as an alumni I get the privalage of using the recreation center. I started off with once or twice a month, I've gotten to once or twice a week. I even made it to 5 crunches, weighted with 10lbs. It doesn't sound like much, but it's something. I used to go for a half hour, and every bit helps, but I've been able to go for an hour these days. It means I've been eliptical or biking for a half hour, and strength and core exercises have been the other half hour. It's a very slow progress, but it's progress.

Today was probably the first time I could look in the mirror at the gym, and not be completely disgusted with what I saw. I was still mildly disgusted, but it was good to see something. My stomach didn't protrude as much, my face and neck have lost a little chub, and I've noticed my bottom doesn't hang as much.